I Get Deep From Time To Time

I think it's easier to behave 

Indifferently than to express

What we truly feel

Or at least for those of us

Who had the upbringing of

Having to pretend

I'm not sure whether what I'm

Going to elaborate on is right or wrong

But I do know that it feels different than being

Indifferent

:)

It has occurred to me throughout this year

That it's soooooo much better

To express what we truly feel

Even when at the risk of being judged as

Crazy, different, outcast, insecure

Desperate, repressed, troubled,
Immature, troublemaker, gossiper

I think it's even more necessary to express

How we feel when the same feeling

Keeps showing up with different people

In different situations

The situation is never the cause of the problem

The situation is a catalyst to help

Us overcome the feelings that hold us back

Very recently I found myself

Overwhelmed with a feeling
That continues to occur regardless
Of the situation and the people involved
My normal is to pretend that I don't feel it
But repressing the feeling
Becomes resentment and
Resentment is toxic in any kind of
Relationship
SO
I gathered as much courage as
I possibly could and
Expressed what I felt
And...
It was great :)
Even funny :)
The risk I took wasn't for the other person
It was for me

The same day a friend called
She wanted my opinion on something
She had been wanting to do, which
Involved fully expressing herself but
She was afraid to do it because
Of fear of being judged as crazy
Coincidence?
No way
:)

What did I tell her?

"More than likely they're going to think
You're crazy. But if this is what
You need to do to feel liberated, do it.
Sharing your thoughts and feelings is the way you
Find yourself."

Boom
;)